yet another conclusion
I hate myself!
The only thing to this planet is sick, my shitty existence!
all shit, all the pain and suffering I went through in my life ... all the pain and torture all ...... it was all fair!
Who am I to?
I hate my pseudo-morality and my oh-so-advertised values!
I sell souls and wash my own innocence in ... I screwed it
my life should end here and now .... but I do not do it! Why? Because I imagine that they have not earned it.
Other bodies can still pave my way, but I've yet ..... deserves better, does not it?
Yes, that's it ...... I persuade myself that my life is so much guilt because ...... I've always been withdrawn, because I put my needs always at the back ... and I think to get away .....
And that's the problem:
The further I digress, the better I feel. In the end I scissor me a damn about others and always wants the best for me.
Let the calm be the course of things, but that's exactly what I've always hated.
That is exactly what I have always been sick and this is precisely the reason why I have always been disgusted people.
But no, it's in my life first and foremost for me and not for others.
And every time I consult other people and hear their opinions ..... all the same! Everything around me is
manipulates a single swamp of infamy and horror!
do not misunderstand: I have not killed anyone, and I stole nothing and no one cheated.
BUT: In my head there
these structures: how to murder, steal and cheat.
And that is something I absolutely can not accept.
not ABSOLUTELY! I profane my innermost dogma!
Maybe it's just because I'm crazy.
Or just because I'm lonely again.
I just hate when it's so much easier to simply admit kleinbei than to stand by what we actually thought to live.
shit finish it here and now! Not tomorrow, but NOW!
For now ...... I have so much power so much power to destroy so much ........ ....
And why? Because I just a weak, poor cripple am .... And why exactly
I will get up tomorrow and spend another day as if nothing had happened ....
Yes, it so easily ........ is far too easy ....
" who has visions should go to the doctor ."
- Helmut Schmidt
RAF 4ever!
